Feeling trapped

Not Healthy. I am stuck mentally and financially. Financially because the money Angela has come after me for is more than I have. I truly don't know what to do? Mentally because I feel guilty about how this effects me. I should be able to rise above this. My friend Josh Dawson just passed away from cancer he fought for many years. Leaving a wife and child. I cannot imagine that. That is real heartache. So I am trying to balance my own emotions here. I should be stronger but I also want to fight. . FUCK! Not so fun for a saturday. . . . I have to go write checks for more than I have. . this blows. Sorry. this is truly just venting. I'll be more in-depth next time. Grey Saturday. .