Big Days. .

So this is my girls first day back to school. I wish so bad I could be there with them. To hold them and tell them how proud I am of them. To show them I love them more than anything. To be a part of these days. Maybe they're nervous? Excited? I will have to ask them on Friday. I wrote them a letter today, and I will every Monday if I can. I will pursue them as much as I always have. Being away only has to feel as far away as I let it. Do I wish I could be with them everyday?? To be present as they grow and mature into beautiful young women. Yes. But what is . . . is. I am in acceptance mode these days. Decisions have been made and now it is time to make the best of them. No matter how hard they may be.
I love you Emma Rose Mackey. Good luck in First Grade honey. You make me so proud. . . .
I love you too my darling Sofia Grace. If you are nervous today going into Kindergarten, remember Daddy loves you, and don't be scared. I am sending you squeezes and hugs. I love you both so much. . . . . . so much. . . .

Musical Friends. . .

One of my most prized and valuable fortunes are the friends I have made musically. Musicians are a very unique breed of people. Creative and artistic and emotional. With that spectrum lies many strange characters for sure. When you connect with folks musically though, it creates a very special bond, that is tough as nails. Some of the greatest people in my life I have connected through music. I love you guys so much. . . you know who you are. I feel so fortunate to have stood beside you and laid it out there for the world to hear and ingest. You are as much me as I am you. We are brothers. . . .

So I am off to play the biggest festival I have ever been able to play in. THUNK is playing with some major acts. There is going to be some big open jams late night and I plan on finding the guts to get up on stage and jam with these guys. What better way to find you edge and expand it. I am nervous as hell but what the fuck? Who cares. I am where I am musically. I feel good about it and cannot wait to put it out there. Sweet!! Looking forward to a good old fashion blow out. . .

Off to do Denver things. .

Girls and I are off to the Aqaurium. Our first excursion. I'll take pics and get back to you. We're going to ride our bikes. . . now where is that sunscreen? . . . .

New Home

so we made it. . . I am a Denverite. I live in a little tiny 700 square foot studio, my shit is all over the place, and I love it. I am stoked. I think mainly I finally have mental respite from all the mayhem with Angela. I have moved on, just like everyone has said for the past months. I am excited all over again and I can honestly say I hope Angela finds what she is looking for. I get parking next month, and that will be the icing on the cake. It is kind of chaotic right now, but once I get my space I can bring El Moto down with me too, which I am excited about. I am on the hunt for anothe MotoHaus Location next week too. I am stoked about that for sure. I get to do it again and meet all sorts of new faces and make new relationships. Here I come. . . .

Hectic week. .

That is just the deal-i-o though. Here it is. It is Sunday. I am packing to move. Tomorrow I have to open MotoHaus and then at 2:00 me and the girls will; do Motohaus Deposit, get home, pack up as many boxes as I can fit and Bicycles, drive to Denver, pay deposit and 1st month's rent, load stuff upstairs, drive back to loveland, softball at 8pm for the last game of season, and then to Angela's for bed. Get home and pack some more. Tues, Open MotoHaus, then rent Storage unit, pack and shuffle until it is mostly gone, clean, bed. Wednesday, Open MotoHaus, More of the same. .. etc etc. .. shit. . . bring it!!

Step A. .

It is 4:57. I am about to go and do my "Separation Agreement". I am actually pretty cool right now to be honest. I have needed every ounce of this 6 months to be where I am at and I understand there will be more hard times. But life it good. This is just another step. I'll be alright, and so will me beloved babies. I love them. . . they give me strength. I will kick ass for them. . . .